| change of pace |
[Dec. 16th, 2007|09:22 pm] |
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| | massive attack - dissolved girl | ] |
When I get my Dharma Wheel tattoo, i'm going to have to get the points on the edge that symbolize cutting through ignorance in the form of fucking katana's or something, my word...
So although I've been treading water through the aspects of myself that I feel are the worse, I know and understand that this too shall pass. I couldn't be more estatic right now and I can't wait for the next couple weeks and the future to come. I lost my wallet and I don't have any money because I work one job, I can't buy any one presents, I'm behind in all aspects of money and bills and my coupe has a hole in it. OdD people I show nothing but love to impress me by the negativity and hate they can some how put on my love, twist & manipulate it. I will continue to be the center for myself and everyone around me. People need a scapegoat and a soul to lash out on to release their hate because human nature is not good at handling this on its own. I think the loving one are easy targets because they will accept this almost over bearing negativity and allow those to release onto them. I've never felt as if i haven't been this goat. Throughout all of this and my misfortune, I will continue to let myself know that there is so much worse that could be entering my life. I will continue to be all-loving and love the ones who love me, and love the ones who hate me, I will continue to use all my physical and mental strength to be all loving and put good fortune and positivity to all those who need it. Tortured souls who put their misery on me to ease the pain will not lower me or get me down, but make me feel better because I can do good by loving them.
There is major change going down on earth. I feel as if I'm seeing the majority of people I know going through their worst of time right now. To all of those souls...know that I am as well, and its so hard to see it because you can only relate to whats in your life but let yourselves know before you go to bed that what ever you are going through will pass and there are awful things going on that we are all so far away from. You all have my love, to heal yourself or to attack, to manifest or to destroy, know it is there for you to help cope.
There is so much change going on and there is so much growing and learning that we all have to do. Know that our problems we face our greater than ourselves and are tools for learning and growing.
One said to me recently "life is what you make it" so true but know this relies on a mindset. We can all vibrate at lower frequences...think and manifest what gets us down, or keep positive and have a good outlook on things. Vibrating at higher frequences is not always easy but people will respond and feed off it, sometimes in a negative way but know you are giving them what they need...creating a balance.
If I have learned one thing in this lifetime so far that i can share is that EVERYTHING is a balance, and everything balances out. We go through depression because we were once happy and we are happy because we once were depressed. You must take the good with the bad and know this balance of the universe and accept it, and once you learn to live it, things become easier.
I am so happy during these times because i know good will come, karma is just more that a word, it is an energy. Put good energy out there, put love out there, it'll all come back in the shape of something else. Its proven itself to me and I have gotten exactly what i needed during my current times of despair, a life raft if you will, in the middle of the ocean, again I couldn't be more happy, and through energy I share this feeling with all of you.
I leave you with a book that has helped me so much and everytime i picked it up, it somehow refered to what was going on right in front of me, gave me guidance and gave me answers, it was loving and I share it with you now "Perfect Power in Consciousness" by Dr. Heather Ann Harder
Stay Warm
_Erick |
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[Dec. 3rd, 2007|11:34 pm] |
People talk and think about being alone.
You all don't even know, and I'm thankful you don't |
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[Mar. 15th, 2007|12:01 am] |
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I can't say how thankful I am for mary desmond, sometimes I don't know how she puts up with me. |
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[Feb. 5th, 2007|11:38 pm] |
to the person who stole A scanner Darkly & Requiem for a Dream from my room...fuck you, i offer you hospitality & boose and you steal shit from me, fuck you.
Little georgy...you plunged this country into chaos, fuck you. |
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[Jan. 12th, 2007|12:55 pm] |
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| | c+l-tender sparks | ] |
Ok, next week, im going to school. I went this wednesday, thats it. |
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[Dec. 22nd, 2006|04:36 pm] |
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Yesterday I bought an apartment. |
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[Oct. 31st, 2006|12:18 am] |
I didn't know anyone at derricks halloween party with the exception of 10 people. It was packed. Mary and I were jack and sally, our costumes owned everyones.
I went to go see nightmare before christmas in 3d, it was pretty sweet, the movie really isn't made for 3d but it worked.
So I got my deck put in my car today. It fucking bumps but the iTrip causes so much static, its wicked lame. I wish new radios came with cassettes so i could hook my tape adapter in again, heh. If anyone knows what I could do about this suggestions would be awesome cause i know nothing about car audio. My right headlight dimed out finally, they are the same ones since it was made in 93.
so yeah got to pay for that yadda yadda bunch of other shit im poor yadda yadda nothing anyone is going to care to read.
Peace |
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| I love mary! |
[Oct. 28th, 2006|10:35 am] |
So I've basically been living with mary the past week, and its been awesome.
Tuesday I shot my corporate video for ASB for a film project. The b-roll i got of the club was pretty good, but Ali and Robin didn't take the interview too seriously. So i doubt i can use any of it and will have to re-do it.
Mary and I got stuff for our halloween costumes wed. and worked on them last night. It was also alex's shoot that day so i got back in the area around 2.
Thursday was Spencers shoot. We filmed a tour and got footage of the armanian (sp?) holocaust museum & library. It was really interesting, and friday we interviewed a reverend at the armanian church in water town.
Last night mary and i watched dreamcatcher in high def and worked on my costume and crashed at her house. Now shes here working holbrook with me. |
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| Sweet...sweetness |
[Oct. 23rd, 2006|06:52 pm] |
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So i FINALLY got new speakers for my car, I blew the 2 back ones out which most of you know, and got really exspensive kevlar ones that won't blow.
The speakers are being put in now, and i got a radio to give them more power, but i can't get the radio in there till about thursday or friday or until they get the part.
woo hoo
tomorrow = me and mary's 10th month :) |
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| The past week |
[Oct. 22nd, 2006|09:13 am] |
Tilly and the Wall live at the middle east
Christians and Lions live at T T and the Bears
the Bentmen live at the middle east |
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| I hope my battery doesn't explode |
[Sep. 20th, 2006|12:47 pm] |
My laptop came so soon. Its fucking awesome and the glossy screen is amazing. I can't to start doing video editing on here.
Just thought I'd make an entry from it. |
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[Sep. 14th, 2006|09:48 pm] |
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| | yeah yeah yeah's - maps | ] |
Production at diablo! I banged out 26 paper weights today, although thats all I made for my artsfestival coming up, its still alot and they sell for alot.
One Merrymount Parkway, Quincy
The Richard J Koch Family Park & Recreation Complex
Come buy my work! Or just check it out, I'll have pictures tomorrow.
Yesterday was sweet. Jesse and I checked out the tb hospital in hanson. its all boarded up now, the only way in is if you like monkey up a pole. I didn't want to go in with out jesse so we left for weymouth. Mary's brother took us to this building hidden from the streets. we smoke a blunt in the smoke stack haha, yes we were walking around in a giant furnace. I think it was some waste managment facility. Pretty cool though.
So shortly I will be in the school routine :( But right now, I'm drinking african tea :) |
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[Aug. 27th, 2006|11:35 am] |
Working at holbrook
this entry...money in the pocket |
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[Aug. 26th, 2006|07:24 am] |
The only two places I want to be right now:
1.) Maine with matt, matt, joe cuge and shannon
2.) Vermont with mary
Massachusetts sucks wicked. |
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[Aug. 26th, 2006|07:02 am] |
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After another little vacation I am at work saturday morning.
A little longer drive had me up in vermont this time :) So nice for driving during the day, scary at night though.
Wicked tired and twichy from energy drinks made it a little hard to sleep the first night getting there. Mary and her brother stayed up waiting for me, and we played black for a bit. Vermont had very nice scenery as well, the house they're building up there has an incredible view.
Wendensday morning mary, her brother and I went to the nearest town which was bradford. Rented some movies, got some chinese foooooood, went back to the campers. I saw her house they were building, fucking incredible. Its so nice and its huge! Fancy stuff.
Thursday I was up really early and spent my morning playing black and watching movies. Mary, Willie (her brother) and I went into burlington. It is about an hour an a half away from them. Its a fucking sweet little town. We got food at a buffet sort of thing at a supermarket, and surpisingly, was delicious. Got djarums & saw scanner darkley. It was pretty good. Makes your eyes hurt. Got back pretty late, was really tired driving at this point. We roasted veggie dogs over an open fire and shortly went to bed after.
Friday morning we all got up and headed to the house to shower.(its not finished but they put the bathroom in already.) and got breakfest in bradford after. When we got back mary and I took a nap and then walked through the woods to a part of the river that was about 4 feet deep. It was freezing but there was a rope...so i had to go in. When we got back they were all going out and doing something and I stayed behind and left 45 minutes after...I had to head home :(
The drive home was sweet though, started out at sunset around 7ish, got home around 10:30. Nice easy cruise.
All to wake up at 5, and work, back home...woo. |
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[Aug. 22nd, 2006|03:52 pm] |
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| | people running on treadmills | ] |
So a week ago at this time i was making an entry about leaving work and going to maine. Now here I am in the same seat and planning my road trip up to vermont.
Mary's parents are building a house up there and go there sometimes. Burlington isn't too far from where they are, so mary and i will probably visit there.
I'm leaving after work at 9 again. Its about a 3 1/2 hour trip if you drive fast. My goal is two hours and 50 minutes.
I'm really sad about leaving my kitty again for so long.
I hope i can get some pot cuffed, for the drive up and what not.
I wish I could take my cat with me.
A few days away with mary will be awesome. |
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| Olivia |
[Aug. 22nd, 2006|02:57 am] |
I love my kitty :) |
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[Aug. 21st, 2006|06:12 pm] |
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| | lazy | ] |
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| | rage, the rooftop song | ] |
Friday sucked and couldn't bear being home. So i drove around with some people till three in the morning just to be out and doing something. And i still can't stand being home. Not wanting to go to sleep for an hour I drove around a bit before work and went in at like 5 oclock exactly. Started working and cleaning and went to marys on no sleep at 2. We took a nap from 3-6, after picked up her friends and jesse and got grasshopper and saw SNAKES ON A PLANE!! So unbelieveably gooood. Sunday I worked, and now its monday and I'm working again...woo |
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[Aug. 20th, 2006|02:19 am] |
...and all too soon friday morning came. Jumped in the lake for our last time, took down the tent and packed up & headed home. Within a couple hours a straight shot down home was a bummer. The feeling of approaching home and breathing the city air was awful.
I want to be in maine, back at the docks smoking with matt cuge joe and shannon. Thank you for an awesome vacation. |
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[Aug. 20th, 2006|02:11 am] |
Thursday morning had us swimming at the lake to wake up, and off to the sweet town of portland we went. It is a really nice place, looks like a little unmodern boston. or at least oldport does. Went to the glass factory but was closed...or closed down? Plans of going down rivers on tubes fell through, however we went to a sweet little bridge and jumped off it into nice cool water. Smoked a little ganj got food and went back home.
Its a blur by now, we probably went back and swam for a bit. We went up to the sunset again real early this time and walked up the most steep hill in the world. At the top was a horror movie set at a christian camp in the day time. I want to film up there. We got icecream after and went shopping for campfire food. We got veggie dogs and tofu and fake chicken, I ate so much fake meat on hotdog buns that night. That night ended with fishbowling the little two person tent. Finished off the rest of shannon's weed, that saved us all vacation because the maine sheriff's have mine. Thank you. |
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